+ I can't stand iT!!! +
I can't stanD it!
I am going maD with frustration.. and one way to vent my frustrations is through here... through words....
Y is the world so complicated??
Y are there always so many choices and so much decisions to make...
Y are all the decisions always so crucial??
N Y do they always come at the same time??? One week after the next????
I know my head is big but my mind is small and the capacity for stress is even smaller...
Still glad that through all ordeals I get to see who are my true friends....
who are those truly concerned for me... who are those who are just making use of me... who befriend me purely because they think I make a good friend and not with some uterior motive...
For the past months(since july),
I've been living much like a machine, programmed with a direct aim and the standard procedure of achieving the aim....
step 1: blah blah blah
step 2: blah blah blah blah...
etc...
emotions exist only in me and not shown and not felt....at all... i mean it...
stored.. somewhere deep inside... accumulating.....
n all of a sudden all emerged.... forcing their way out of me... with a strength so great I cannot withstand... (for more details on how this feels, look under
http://www.tulane.edu/~sanelson/geol204/volcan&magma.htm
I belong to the explosive eruption)
and at the end all escaped.... naught's left..... void of emotions again....
can the machine still work...?? hope it can...
but this time, void of emotions even deep inside....
the machine shall work forever... for the goal programmed....
without fear of eruption anytime soon.... for it takes time to accumulate....
hopefully this time, rate of accumulation is slow...
